jakester2008

        Let this day mark the day I officially kill this account. I'm not going to delete it because it is a bank of my past art that I always love looking back on the progress and memories. Let die, let Live! (that's my new account)  I hope to see some of you over there! This is goodbye forever as Jakester2008. Love you all. 

So yesterday I found out that my Ex-Step Father died. He was my like a father in many ways. He raised me and taught me everything he knew. I would not be where I am or who I am without him today. He taught me everything there was to know about everything. He was my dad. He stopped talking to us for the last couple years and I would like to think that he was trying to save us some grief because he knew it was coming. I just don't know what to think at this moment. It all just seems so surreal and not real.  All these memories of growing up with him are coming back. Him buying me my first comic. Us going to see any superhero movie that came out. Him teaching me how to basically socialize. After him and my mother divorced, I saw him every weekend and I always looked forward to it. We would talk aimlessly about things that really did not matter. Like which superhero could beat who or who's better Picard or Kirk. These were some other greatest conversations of my life and I will never forget them. I will never forget him. The man who laid down the very foundation of the man I am today. I can not thank him enough. I love you Alan. So much. Thank you for turning me into who I am. Thank you for steering me in the right direction. Thank you for loving me when you did not have to. Thank you for all the memories and love. Again. I love you. 

Hola friends It's been a good couple months since I last was on dA regularly. There are many reasons why i have not been on a lot is because the page kept crashing if I had ANYTHING else up on my computer. Now I have an amazing computer lol high-powered gaming computer I use to record my Youtube videos, but for some reason it just kept shutting of my internet for a split second. Like it could not download all the images at once. Im not sure why but I will find the reason soon so I can be on more.

Another reason is because there seemed to be little activity and collaborations going on with me. I did drop out of DU for a reason. I just don't like that big of a collab lol. Its nice to see a bunch of people come together like that, but its just to much for me. I guess that's the same reason why the Secret Wars got stale for me. The beginning was great but then the addition of a shit ton more just..bleh. I'm picky lol. I'm not saying it was a bad thing, it did introduce me to a lot of nice people! Anyways..I really want to work with people again. More vocally then just reading. Like a real friendship I guess. The last reason Is I just got swamped in school work, with AP Art and AP English. Sucks ass.

Unlike the last few times I said I was back, this time its true. I never ever want to leave again. You have my word. I promise. I am ready to see what the rest of 2013 has in store for me Sorry I have been gone so long.
                                                                        <3 Jake

So today was portfolio day at the nearest art college near me and I took my best pictures of the best..and well... I'm highly discouraged of the art that I saw there. The paintings, the Mona Lisa looking shit.. I'm so discouraged for my future. I mean..I always thought I was decent...but...there are so many others. Im scared lol I waited in line for about an hour to talk to one college, SVA in NEW YORK, and basically he said I'm on a great path with the mixture of art that I brought. He told me that not many artists can vary in styles like I do. He gave me a list of comics to study from and to read to help me with my background problems. I did have fun..but it hurt my brain to see people my age with...master pieces.  So what I am thinking is getting my ass in fucking gear. I am going to work on my art constantly now. I'm am going to explore all medians that I can. I'm going to start attempting to paint lol do more marker stuff..etc. I want a career in graphic design and cartooning. I want to draw for my life. It is my passion. You never work a day in your life if you love what you do. That is what I want to say in the future.  I have never made much money in the past with my art. Commission's didn't work lol but I'm not giving up on this. From here on I am going to make it my sole purpose to achieve this dream of working in an art field. I'm never...NEVER giving up.

I will not post the pages on DeviantArt anymore. You will have to go allllll the way to Rocket Bot to read them! It will be exclusively on Rocket Bot ran by the great and others The pages will go up weekly on the weekends. I would greatly appreciate it if come of you commented on some of the pages or tell me what you think about the story.

Here is the link:
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Big Love <3,
                Jake